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[13 Dec 2004|08:14am] |
*sigh*
What am I doing?
I want more than this.
I need to get out of NY I think it is slowly killing my personality.
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[03 Dec 2004|06:18pm] |
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Umm been up to lots of shit, super busy with school.. I come home soon and I'm super psyched. Miss people back home but likin' NY more and more everyday.
I have hella pics to post but umm I'm being hella lazy and I have shitloads of work to be doing so I'll edit this later with some.
<3 Jen
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OK so I've been watching Baseball and Boston won.. go Boston! I was with hella Boston fans so I was cheering for Boston, I didn't actually expect them to win while watching them yesterday though.
I lost my cell phone today. : ( I lost the numbers of everyone I've met in the last few mo. or anyone that's changed their number. That blows. I'll survive though. If they don't call me or I'm not desperate enough to get their number from someone then it probably doesn't matter. I come home in about a month anyway. Just really blows 'cause I applied for jobs with that number and I was expecting phone calls so now I have to call a few places and be like.. by the way that's not my number. If anyone really needs it e-mail me and I'll give you my room number. I don't have an answering machine and keep in mind the three hour time difference because my roommate does sleep and I can't make outgoing calls.
Also my internet in my room is no longer working, I'll try to check everyday but I can't make any promises. Basically I'm three thousand miles away and you can contact me via e-mail which I'll check every once in a while.
I guess that's it.
Please e-mail phone numbers if you expect a call when I get home in a month. Skarletcherry@yahoo.com
<3, Jen
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| HEY KIDS! |
[18 Oct 2004|04:05pm] |
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You Know What's Real Cool...?
Blasting music so loud the walls of your neighbors room vibrate and they have to wear ear plugs while sitting in their own room. Yeah... thanks. Asshole. I can't concentrate on shit because my head is PULSING. I have an essay to write and hella work to do and all I can think about is killing the people next door because I feel like my head is just going to spontaneously combust any minute now. Do you ever have the urge to just walk up to some one and be like "The migraines were so thoughtful of you." "Thanks for sucking." The best part is that even when you go next door to ask him to turn it down.. you can't hear yourself knocking because it is so loud, so you don't even bother. I've only talked to him once and he politely turned it off but I really would have expected him to seeing as it was 12:30 at night and I was sick and had class at 8am. I got maybe 3 hours of sleep last night and I am in the worst fucking mood. I'm not a happy camper. I just want to lie down but can I... nooo because my bed literally vibrates with the bass. Yup. I'm just splendid.
Fuck New York.
On a brighter note my math teacher didn't come in today so I got out an hour early which was nice.
The End.
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| Across the Border |
[18 Oct 2004|03:26am] |
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Tonight my bag is packed
Tomorrow I'll walk these tracks
That will lead me across the border
Tomorrow my love and I
Will sleep 'neath auburn skies
Somewhere across the border
We'll leave behind, my dear
The pain and sadness we found here
And we'll drink from the Bravo's muddy water
Where the sky grows gray and wide
We'll meet on the other side
There across the border
For you I'll build a house
High upon a grassy hill
Somewhere across the border
Where pain and memory
Pain and memory have been stilled
There across the border
And sweet blossoms fill the air
Pastures of gold and green
Roll down into cool clear waters
And in your 'neath open skies
I'll kiss the sorrow from you eyes
There across the border
Tonight we'll sing the songs
I'll dream of you, my corazon
And tomorrow my heart will be strong
And may the saints' blessing and grace
Carry me safely into your arms
There across the border
For what are we
Without hope in our hearts
That someday we'll drink from God's blessed waters
And eat the fruit from the vine
I know love and fortune will be mine
Somewhere across the border
*I'm in love with this song*
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[29 Sep 2004|04:54am] |
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OK, so we drank tonight cause it was Marissa's birthday. I went to bed a few hours ago but woke up around 2 and then again around 3.. I've been up for a while now so I figured I'd accomplish something. I'm cleaning and updating my internet stuff. It's been raining here quite a bit and it makes me happy. I might have been on some news yesterday, there was a camera man outside the subway station at Columbus Circle recording people in the rain. I'm the little girl with the neon pink umbrella in a sea of black and navy that smiles at people in the rain. : ) Met another few people last night. I meet alot of people when I'm drinking, I know at least four. O wait I'm up to 5 for sure. Whatever, it was fun. We danced around to dumb music and sang at the top of our lungs for a while, talked to a cute boy named Andrew for a bit who seemed to express intrest in me.. I showed him pics of back home and he asked me about CA plus went through all my music and read my SG profile so he'd have a better idea of who I am. haha it was fun. It's early but I'm pretty awake and in a good mood. I think I'm gonna go try to watch the sun rise on the Promenade. That should be cool. I'm probably gonna call Jimmie in a bit, it's only like 1:30 back home. I slept alot yesterday, for like four hours and then watched Supersize Me again with Kevin, Dave, and Curtis and had a pretty good talk with Dave after. He encouraged me to take a year off and go travel because I was telling him how I wanted to. I was thinking about being a camp counselor back home this summer at this camp where I spent every summer growing up. I love kids and I love being outdoors and I figured it would be a good change from NY but I might try to roadtrip across the country with a few friends and live out of my car for a while. I have a few months to decide so it really doesn't matter but it would be fun. Anyway, I guess I'm gonna get up and go for a walk or lie down for a while. Either way I'm gonna go find something to do.
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| Went running for like an hour then ate chocolate. I suck. |
[27 Sep 2004|01:22am] |
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Ummm.. chillin'... been working out alot. my thighs look great but my back hates me. I think it's part matress, part excercise.. either way it sucks. School is good, I applied for a job at Whole Foods. I REALLY hope I get it. My ex boyfriend just called me to tell me he misses me... I didn't know what to say so. Being my usual dumb goofy self.. just in NY instead. Miss alot of people back home but I come home in less than two mo. so it's ok. I still miss my dog alot. Marissa showed me some pics of Seth, he's getting so big and still just as cute as always. I've quit smoking again, doing pretty good. Haven't drank the past week or so either.. go me. Been taking protein and vitamins and stuff so my body is pretty happy. I got my haircut and it looks awesome. I don't know what else to write so I'm going to bed. Night y'all.
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| Frou Frou - Let Go |
[11 Sep 2004|07:17pm] |
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Drink up baby doll Are you in or are you out Leave your things behind 'Cos it's all going off without you Excuse me too busy Your Writing your tragedy
These mishaps you bubble-wrap When you've no idea what you're like So let go jump in Oh well what you waiting for
It's alright 'Cos there's beauty in the breakdown So let go, yeah let go just get in Oh it's so amazing here It's alright 'Cos there's beauty in the breakdown
It gains the more it gives And it rises with the fall So hand me that remote
Can't you see that all that stuff's a sideshow Such boundless pleasure We've no time for later now You can't await your own arrival You've twenty seconds to comply
^*^
Another long night of drinking, fun but messy, bad.. sucks. I'm cool off tonight. I don't think I want to drink anymore. Everytime I am hung over (which is actually only 50%, if even that) I say the same damn thing. Whatever I suck.
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| Whats up John Denver. (Has been stuck in my head ALL DAY) |
[08 Sep 2004|06:37pm] |
All my bags are packed
I’m ready to go
I’m standin’ here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breakin’
It’s early morn
The taxi’s waitin’
He’s blowin’ his horn
Already I’m so lonesome
I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
There’s so many times I’ve let you down
So many times I’ve played around
I tell you now, they don’t mean a thing
Ev’ry place I go, I’ll think of you
Ev’ry song I sing, I’ll sing for you
When I come back, I’ll bring your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time
Let me kiss you
Then close your eyes
I’ll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won’t have to leave alone
About the times, I won’t have to say
Oh, kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you’ll wait for me
Hold me like you’ll never let me go
cause I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
But, I’m leavin’ on a jet plane
Don’t know when I’ll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
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| Rock the Casbah!!! |
[06 Sep 2004|11:21am] |
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Listening to the Clash and dancing around in my Pajamas. The last few days have been awesome. I've been having such a good time. It was Kims birthday the other day so we had white russians then mixed vodka and cranberry juice again. It's weird drinking three different types of vodka in one night. Got super drunk and had a good time. Yesterday I went and got school books (NO LINE!) and hung out with this guy Craig. It was totally like something out of a movie with walked by Lincoln center and there were all these booths set up of people selling artsy stuff so we wandered through there and found this awesome arch guitar player, from there we went to central park and wandered around for a while found this amazing found and the pond and stuff. There was these two adorable little asian brides and their wedding parties taking photos and I wished I had my camera so bad because there was the perfect picture. It was on of the brides sitting on the fountain eating a crepe with her groom next to him and a groomsman on either side and they were looking tired but happy, kinda bored but perfect... I don't know it was just the most awesome photo.. so we ate a crepe and met a street musician that played some mad classical guitar, bought cds, someone stopped to talk to Craig about his sweatshirt (which had something making fun of bush on it) and she showed us some pics of the protests she'd taken we walked around some more and found like this rollerskating party or something, there was music and people were dancing on skates and tons of people were watching and it was just plain funny but still really cool, we walked away from that and found this lone hippie girl on a hill playing acoustic guitar stuff which was cool and watching this woman play croquet all by herself in this really pretty little garden spot. We walked back to the Opera house wandered through the booths more, bought some archguitar music (which also fucking rocks!) and made plans to go see Carmen on Oct. 2nd (way syked). After that we went into this really gorgeous church (St. Pauls I think) just off 59th, and wandered around it for awhile, the mass started right after we got in so almost the entire time we were there we were listening to this awesome organ music and people singing. Then we came back and I took a nap. Just an overall really good day. There was music everywhere we went and everything was so vibrant and beautiful and we kept coming across random cool shit. : ) Today I'm going to the east village with Kevin and we're gonna go to American Apparel and this little vegetarian restaurant and just sort of hang out and wander around. Then I'm going to the Bronx Zoo with Craig at 1:30. I'm just super happy, things are going great out here I'm making so many friends. Plus I'm still getting e-mails from my friends back home every few days or so,(mostly James, Lesley, and Jessika) so I'm really happy about that. I don't know, shit is good.
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OK, so I hung out with Kevin last night/today and we talked until like 4:30am it was cool. He's a really cool cat. We talked about so much, it was awesome. Things in NY are going really great.. I really like it out here and I think I'm gonna make it. Mal comes in like 75 days, I'm really excited. I come home in 80 which really doesn't feel that long. : ) I know it will when it gets down to like 40 but right now it feels really close and I'm really excited. I really miss CA and everyone there. I really wanna talk to James (Buttons), I really miss him, I keep calling him and he keeps being busy and that makes me really sad. I care about him so much, I've called Brogan alot more too. I guess you don't realize how important people are to you until you're not around them. I feel almost like I always took my relationships with them for granted and I miss them so much. It doesn't even stop at them. I miss Allie and Jessika and shit just everyone.. it's like why didn't I spend more time with you when I was home. I have the coolest friends in the world (and I know everyone says that) but seriously... like everyone back home is so important to me and not being around them hurts. Like I want to be back home so bad sometimes that I just want to cry and of course I won't cause I'm stubborn but ahhh. I love it out here, the people are great, school is awesome, being on my own is awesome.. everything is great but I have this huge pain where my friends are and I just can't help thinking about them. I talk about everyone so much, I keep telling people about all my friends back in CA and even though I know they don't know them it doesn't matter because just talking about everyone makes me feel good, I have all these amazing memories that make me smile everyday and it's so hard letting go. It's so hard. I'm sorry for taking everyone for granted. I love you all so much and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Thanks.. for everything.
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| Thank You. |
[31 Aug 2004|11:18pm] |
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Ok so today was pretty cool, It almost rained this morning, I got really excited. OK I'm watching TV, I know I hate TV but somehow it's addictive. I have like Bushman legs dude I hella need to shave, it's been a few weeks. : \ I burnt popcorn and now my hands smell like it and it's giving me a massive headache. I think I'm gonna go hang out with Dave this weekend in NJ, Allie is going to Philly and it's either that or hang out with all the guys.. maybe I'll see what Kevin is up to one day. DUDE, I got raspberry swirl donuts today, I was so excited. I've never seen raspberry donuts and they reminded me kind of of the Simpsons so I had to buy them, I know it was such an impulse buy but they were hella good. Mmmm I'm eating chips and salsa. : q *slurp* MMMMMMM CARBS! I can't stop laughing, I'm so sleep deprived. I have to get offline and do shit. Late.
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| This song = me.. I do this. I think like this. |
[31 Aug 2004|12:27am] |
All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
I like watchin' the puddles gather rain
And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
and speak my point of view
But it's not sane, It's not sane
I just want some one to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made
And I don't understand why I sleep all day
And I start to complain that there's no rain
And all I can do is read a book to stay awake
And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape
escape...escape...escape...
All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
ya don't like my point of view
ya think I'm insane
Its not sane...it's not sane.
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[31 Aug 2004|12:10am] |
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I'm either not eating or I'm over eating, I'm not sleeping and I've become obsessively neat and slightly germaphobic. I think NY is going to kill me. I've also become extremely lonely despite that I meet like at least one new person a day. I've stopped doing my sit-ups and have managed to smoke like 3 cigarettes in the past 7 days.. Whats up.. I suck. I don't think I want to smoke or drink anymore. I just want someone to be with. I'm fucking lonely. I need affection dammit. I need to shave, I need to buy toilet paper. And dammit most importantly I need sleep and it's not coming to me. This place sucks. I'm sure if I had a roommate already she would hate me by now. My bathroom sink leaks... I met like the perfect guy for me but he's back in CA and I suck. The end. I'm trying to find a dance class out here. I've discovered I love dancing and Allie (a girl I met out here) and I are looking for a dance class, hiphop, salsa, or bellydancing preferably.) Wish us luck. I was thinking about trying Arabic again. I think I'm gonna buy myself a plant to keep me company. I really miss my dog. and my friends... homesick but dealing... blah blah blah... I'm done.
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